The start.....

When does it hit you? When do you realize that what your doing isn't working for you or your family? Well for me it was when i realized (with the help of some very special people) that i didn't love my self. Ive never had a problem loving anyone else... i love whole heartedly, but i didn't love myself...i was at the point of when i looked in the mirror i didn't know who i was looking at. i didn't love the way i looked i didn't love the way i acted and i started to not love my life. For those of you who dint know... i have a BEAUTIFUL family a 9 yr old daughter who is sooo BEAUTIFUL (Erin) a husband who i love with my whole heart (David) wonderful parents who i dint know where i would be with out them(Don and Lee) and wonderful in laws who love ME! (Lee and Marilyn) I have friends that people would kill for who are always there to pick me up when i fall.... i have nothing in the world to feel sorry about! BUT i had it in my head that i did....
So last night while "pouting/ feeling sorry for my self " in bed i realized i cant live like this.....
SO starting today this is MY road to recovery DAY1

when people read Road to Recovery.... i imagine the first thing that pops in their head is drugs, alochol, or some other kind of addiction..... well for me that's not the case at all.... for me its LOVING MY SELF SO THAT I CAN LOVE OTHERS THE WAY THEY NEED TO BE LOVED.... that's the first step and THEN and only THEN i can move on to making my self into who i want to be (i want to loose weight and be healthy) i want to be there to see my daughter grow up and have children. i want to grow old with my Husband. So i will be Blogging everyday and posting pics... on how i am doing with the weight loss... and also let you know what i will be doing and whats going on in my life!
XOXO
NIKKY